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Saturday 6 February 2016

Time machine

Today , zarith sufiea , 22years old . at 7 feb 2016 has request to back the time at 12 / 12 / 2014 .
We start with 12/12/14 .




This is me at 12/12/14 , working fresh worker as Mcd Crew . Still remember How much i really hate my job environment , well all my mighty . I make my self stronger to get work is by close with every one that perhaps may cheer me up to go work everyday . yeah it work and also i realized , people come and go .

                         

January 2015

When i start be close with all crew MCD , still get used . Im really a shy person for the first meet .

20 January 2015 ,

while i in break time , Manager bring new worker. He wearing glasses , his body is just medium size (Fit) and he wear blue Mcd uniform ( the old uniform) i guess perhaps he one of trainer that will teaching us and also i think , 

''is he old ? what do i will call him ? Pakcik ? or abang ? but he seem like uncle , lol''

He is look at me , but just slightly , my mood also that time act like i dont care , just do your own job and also other think like , is he will like me? but why i care?? >.<

After break ,
i am focusing my job , but sometime my eyes cant stop looking sneakily . Keep wondering in my head , what is his name ? and puff !!! manager suddenly call him ''pizy'' 
and that i know his name was fizi .

                                                                    21 January 2015

I always on work at 6;00 pm , that only free time i have duhh , but im searching that fizi guy, when he will punch in? so i look at work schedule , ''Hafizi'' , well i bet that his name , he punch in at 7 pm!
cool, 
okay start to focus make drink order .

7:00 Pm , he came and punch in .The first he step at the mcd kitchen , i just looking and smile normal and he also smile but towards everyone , not only me . He do fries order , while we both focusing on work coz the customer start came in (ToT) so much people lah !

and when we are free , i secretly go at his place , cause he look pitiful . He have to restore the fries and the same time have to make fries order , the salt are almost finish so i help him a bit. and the same time he ask my name . 

''Sofia and you ''

''Iqmal hafizi''

i smile and start to talk , well only about the fries and then talk about age , and the funny things, i lie to him my age . I say my age 19 , and he believe >.< nyahahaha
well that topic of age make us close enough , i say ''im look younger right'' and he jokingly said , ''you are 30 , should i address you sister '' 
and after that i start poking his waist , when want to stop him say joking things . i called him iqmal that day .

well that time , i start to accept him as the older friend . by the way he being scandal with someone else that time , with mira . they both was being scandal by the manager because they both always fight like cat and dog .

22 January 2015

Iqmal start work early than me , while he want finish his work and want punch out and also manager try to comfort him to stay bit longer, i suddenly came close and say 

'' Overtime please , you can help me bring the heavy ice cream liquid''

and he say . Okay with the tired expression and bright smile . Lol i dont know why i feel heavy feeling if he go , after midnight , Iqmal asking me  whether i good in cook , and my scorpio secretive suddenly came out and say 

''Nope , i dont know''

iqmal make the un believe face 

''Are you lie? your face is really cant be read''

and i keep say i dont know and same time i laughing

'' You lie ! your image like a really nice girl and your attitude is really good,and its really weird if you dont know how to cook''

After i heard his replying , i laugh and laugh . because of who i am really and how he judging me

23 jan 2015

we become really close , idk how we can be that close, the un plan things happen to me, i accidentally leaning my head at his shoulder, what the fuck im think that time . well i kind secretly asking myslef. why i do that things duh??? but he seems okay . xD . lol

 So sis sabariah asking iqmal what type girlfriend he like , i feel nervous to hear about it but unfortunately he reply he doesnt want in relationship that time . i try to cover my expression , sis sabariah asking is he already has girlfriend? , well after that question , my heart feel really jealous , and start think . 
''Is he with mira? he doesnt like me? iqmal stupid ! why just you dont answer it??? it really make me frust !!?''

sis sabariah realized my face and my frust ,so she stop asking iqmal.. she know that time i like him.
''i dont like , i just keep a deep fan feeling toward him.''

there  one time , when i became cashier , i mistakenly saying asking ''is MUSHROOMSHOUP there yet ???" and iqmal teasing me ,''mushroomshoup? mushroomshoup?'' and laughing . i feel so want bite him . -_-

at midnight ,
So i asking him , is he and mira in relationship , and he sarcastically say .
''What the hell i want be with that bitch ????? she is the only girl i want stand so far far far away and want kill her ''

well my feeling become a little better , and start happy . haha so i just give excuse , that just a random question .

24 jan 2015

Iqmal always claim that i was his angel of the world , he teasing and when i call him he right away say ''Yes my angel of the world''

it kind of embarrassed sometime but in the same time , it felt so blushing . Well that time im still in strict rules , no love words will came out from this mouth forever .

25 jan 2015

iqmal make me give my number , before i leave work . Idk , maybe because tomorrow i off work and maybe i shall miss that guy .So that night we texting until morning , it really nice to feel that feeling again . you know the love feeling , when you always blushing and want do something perfect , and make stupid things and also planning everything for get his attention .sort of like that . It had been so long time ,for having this feeling .


this is the first photo i get at his whatapps DP , i stunned . ''wow he is so charming ''

26 januari-27 januari 2015
After all always text non stop, caring nonstop and the ridiculous words , we try always to be together as we can .Iqmal that time is , little bit charming , adore and really make my heart feel complete with the feeling



28 januari



This is the first stage of the begin of our story ,still not official .
but we keep deep

i just be careful , that all . We all need time 

2 Febuari 2015


We start focus on each other, we both always try find time for spending together. And we officially become the lovely lover and annoying lover . and look how i worried lose someone i deeply fall .


pffttt.....He always look and see me that deep from the first place ,it make my heart blushing. and i always say dont look me like that or i will do something bad at him and he keep say just do what you want to do

Then one day , i do something bad, He keep held my hand , and say no matter happen he will be with me forever . and i just shocked . I keep saying if we are destiny ..if not you have let me go. But he say No. he will forever loyal and love me and give all love i need. What have i done ? am i do something wrong ( duh i am ) . kikiki


16 Feb 2015


He always do came late everyday when we supposed to meet before work , example .I said 4;30 pm, he will sure do come at 5:40 pm . Duhh i waiting him like hell . I type of strict with time , and he like warghhhhhhh !!!! and  he always get my nagging lecture

       

10 feb 2015

His first time came to my house area , that time i off day , he say he want meet me before go work . He say he cant bear wihout me in one day . cause its fucking hateful in mcd work with mira. 
one day without me like helll. LOL i just laugh .  he so cute adorable guy ! i want eat him alive that time!

13 Feb 2015


                                                     

His came to my House area , this day he comment he dislike me wearing shawl .mehh i dont care ,i wear shawl when i lazy to iron my Bawal tudung . he say i more pretty wearing simple , i just dont hear and care what he babling about .And he still take my selfie photo and comment my lips is so unique when smile .

''Your lips is unique , when you smile you thick lips become thin .You should smile more''

And also because of this is my first time see him wearing  a really short Shirt , i claim he has muscle at hand , and i really do like see his! and then he do that action and make his arm like that . hahaha
Whenever i held his arm , and asking his muscle hand or when he want see me melting at him he will do like that .  >.< hehe


14 feb 2015

like others lover , celebrate happy valentine. i dont celebrate but , we ate a really nice velvet cake ,
we shared .The funny is , when people around us detect our relationship , they want to bother it when we want having same break time . And manager , for the first place he just let us go, but due of worries of no more future break together , iqmal ask to let me go break first . huhu




This is actually my first time hanging around at 3 am with him , XD . 23 feb 2016 . we sang song this while walking back to MCD

''You are my honey bunch''

He know that song , because we once change hardisk to get movie, and he find out my secret video ! I dont even remember that video still in there. He comment that he found my true self ,is something he try to bear,,he is type of not selfie guy , not a photo guy .But im the type of loving taking photo and he respect it .

End of discuss of my video lipping that song , he say ..he dont like the end of video , he always skip that part . it is because that video is for my Ex . hhuhuuh he make cute jealous face


17 / 2 /2016 

                        

he say im his cute little bunny ! no im not , i just making cute face with him. wakakakaka with him iam show who i am, hanging around him, play with him and i act like how i act when im in comfort zone when with my close siblings .



This time is when he first time met my mom , the most fun part is he hiding behind pillar when my mom see him . hahahah he so adorable !!! ouh this time is when i have to take test of medical checkup before continue my studied at degree . I text him , wanna met at clinic? cause that clinic is near at his house . psst he still not in bath that time , i love him so much wakakakakaka

after done ,and i came home . He text '' having fun eh of teasing me '' i just horrified damn laugh , cause it is so funny . and i told my mom , that guy is that guy i met for now . and asking her , is he handsome LOL , my mom say . 

''even he is handsome , the most important is your future ,Understand?'' 

she smile and i know mom . trust me okay  lol





We spending all time we have , cause im fucking sad for left him and he also will start his new semester at Terengganu , and i at malacca .  (ToT)
and i afraid , of my heart will change back



This is our first time try Mocca frape , and its heavenly tasty!
we already quit the job , but we both secretly lie say we work . its his idea ! not mine xD
yep we be annoying lover that annoyingly the Mcd crew . haha it happen again , lolz .




6 march 2015 , this is when our first date at outside . Because of my nervous, i walking back and forth while patience for waiting him , waaarghhh hahaha

7/2/2016 Today

There a lot of time when we fight ,because of my negative mind. And he always calming and teach me to rid the negative mind . Yeah i feel unsafe , i try to think positive as i could . There so much things happen past 2015 year. And also we create so many fun memories and lovely things and also we through all the pain together . I accept who is he really , and he accept who i am , just he asking make it less. haha

Well happy first time knowing each other , in only several month . I already know half of your self and you half knowing about myself . I hope the past will teach us to be good partner . 
We same but different

i like that

You once asking me, 

''what you want in this relationship?''

you will try your best to fullfill it . Well i have my answer ,

''Lets create a lot of memory, so the memory will binding us''

you know iqmal , you sometime doesnt even remember your promise , i do remember . But will not tell what it is , cause i will make you fulfill the all your promised . and im a fucking type of will get what i want .

I am Ego like you said , but you have know this . My ego is something i cant tell , my principle is not chasing people . And when i do , means i reach of the lower limit to step my ego for something i will never do . if you think it still not enough , then you still need more time to know me :) .
 Its okay , there still plenty of time . Look here you see me simple ,but actually not . im really complicated and my life is based on my mood . You dont know how hard i am to deal my mood , and i not gemuk ! im 47 KG ! 

You like teasing me say fun words , like gemuk , bantut . and one more things you are so damn asking me for killing you when you add my weight as you wish and less my height as you like . HUH gendut tak guna

My comment about you for these past days , months and year. You matured than me and you type of calming person when i make a rainy day at our relationship  . Sometime i purposely get fight with you because i do like looking for trouble with you . You say i angry and you try to comfort me or when you say nice words or when you sing a song just for calming me , actually that time im already in happy moods ,just i am really like to see how far you can be mad on me . Yes you are so good in calming to handle me when getting angry . keep hard working on that ! i really do salute for what you do. There also times im in not good mood , usually i will eat , cry and do have fun alone by my self , ( im the type like being alone and need space) but idk why i want share that weird day moment with you . kekeke . but you doesnt care that much when i in that mood . So i decide for not showing that side that much , i will just focusing on eat , crying and do fun things by myself and my way.
i can see your love if i see close as i can , i really appreciate it . im hoping that you do not hide it from me , just show all your love 

so im hoping this 2016, should be little different . and just a good things happen . I try my best be your partner of life ,and everyone have their own weak . Including you , so do not expect me that much. I am just a normal girl and little bit psyco and have my own secret. xD haha
i love you iqmal , well this post perhaps will be deleted as you wish . i will ask again . you want i rid this post? or not? 


xoxo the psyco hateful loving adore you so much

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