Sincere from the heart

Assalammualaikum,

This is really conversation between me and my friend.

That time both of us at University cafeteria,my friend with her facebook and I with my mocca coffee,that time my friend bragging about mualaf that convert back to her own religion,she really upset to muslim people at there ,why they ignore her and don’t care to mualaf .. don’t you think it is a good news for islam for get new comers of muslim? And why the muslim on there doesn’t care about her.??

Well she is really upset about this,so I let her finish her talking and her bragging…then suddenly she ask me a question, she ask

“ Do you know someone that want enter islam right now but still have no fully convert to islam?”

I stop drink my mocca,my mind become empty.. do I know someone non-muslim that want enter islam ?

‘’Hmmm…yes I do,but I not friend with her…’’

‘’why you not friend with her?and why you not guide her to islam properly?’’ask my friend

I laugh,and just quite and that time its almost time to back to class

That person that I know,was 2 years young from me,its mean she now 18…she is beautiful,really cute and for the first time I see her wear hijab, I got surprised,she become really beautiful and I getting excited to see her more photos wearing hijab.

But..

To her im just a dirty bug that she really hate,I know she hate me and being annoyed to me… why I talk like that? I know right now she is reading my blog… ^_^ hello little girl

Why she hate me? Mhhhh …. that time its my fault , call her something that make her mad…and I should not make her more angry with me… the truth is I just play with her…cause her reaction to my actions really cute… that time I should do what she want,ahh silly me that time,I wish I can back to that time and then punch myself……

Dear little girl,this is my really thinking about you and what is my heart. I swear to allah,I like you and I don’t want your boy,its yours…. I want befriend with you ,but I know it will never happen….i know you hate me,and I know you stalk me and do everything what I do… mmm,

I don’t mind at all,do everything what you want…. This is my last reaction to you,after this I will really ignoring you and stop stalk you , I want ask apologize to you if all my wrong to you have make you hurt or annoyed…

Last for me, if you want,do you want be my friend? If you don’t want its okay,I understand why you don’t want….

If you think this is just a trick for you, okay you don’t have to befriend with me…I don’t mind..i know it hard for you to accept someone like me….just want let you know, your boy and me doesn’t have anymore relationship ,I already kick him from my life… his number I have delete and all his photos I have delete…everything,I swear it….

Just want to make all this things clear…and you don’t have to worry anymore….okay,that’s all im sorry for everything..

#may i ask?why you hate me?if you hate me,why you still follow me? i just wonder :(

(i dont know how to make your heart accept me,im weak in make people heart become comfort,and sorry my English is horibble,this is my first time doing this.mmmhhhh)

Silent love

A Dad Key of his love to his children

Language of Love of Dad

"I made it into the university!" Said the child. Mom immediately hugged me. Shedding tears of joy, but dad still silent without a voice.

Soon, the Dad asked, "How much needed for get there?''

That Dad. He hard to use the language of love. Dad  speak not with words. But with responsibility,

It not means he does not love or happy. But the reach of love of dad was already a few steps ahead, he was busy to calculate the expense. Dad language through action.

his love, with action

Discretion Dad often short, just

"Study well'' 

"Care your prayers'' 

"Remember allah''

while the Mom be otherwise, the Mom is able to express discretion which is not boring. Nagging, memory and concern can be verbose length.

Mom love expressed and triggered through persuasion, anger and tenderness. However not the Dad, Dad just behind the Mom.

When we are away, dad rarely to contact us but the one mom always contact us. However when investigated the Dad are often reminds Mom to make the call. As the child , we sometimes forget, love is still there even when the Dad is not shown.

Dad sometimes seem harsh and cruel. Let us into the water to learn to swim. we breathless and almost drowning. Then get our hands back. Soon, he let go us back. And do it over and over again

In the distance ,mom say

"Stop, our kids will suffocation"

However dad still being strict, and soon the end we succeed  to swim. Dad train us without tired. We were coached nonstop 

In fact, if most people were worried that harm us, dad is the one really worried about us 

We do not understand the meaning behind the his cruelty, because of the fears's Dad ,he acting that way, cause when he gone one day we can save ourselves

In silent of Dad

When we came home from school carrying excellence examination report, Dad welcomed with casually face. The praise that we expect from him is silent. He examined the report book casually. its look like we do not seem achieve anything

However, our hearts became happy. When dad  tell to the mom and to my sibling that's he proud of me, Really dad have his own way of praise.

When it time to separated, that we have to leave the house to stay in hostels or somewhere far. Dad the one accompany us at the last stop.

We see the Mom's face is starting to cloudy and then shed tears. However dad still calm. Calmly he give his hand and we kiss his hand. Dad turned, The staring of the Mom in the distance with a wave of her hand very wistful, dad continued to look forward, focus on driving, do not seem scratched by separation

However  weeks later Mom leaked a secret. Dad the most often looked out bedrooms and the bed that we have left. Dad Become the one that misses. mom said, he began to mention our favorite foods, began staring at the picture and start calculating about wanting to visit us though the time we go still not long

That is the Dad, the grief and sadness but is not shown. Canvas of his love is not drawn by the colors that can be touched by the eye but can only be read by feel. Love of the Dad no less terrible like the  love from Mom, but Dad are better able to hide it. 

Thank to god with loving your Dad, as long as your Dad is still beside you ...

Artikel ditaip oleh : Zarith Sufiea Binti zol

Sumber artikel : Majalah Solusi (sementara ayah masih ada)

P/S: Ayah,jika satu hari ayah membaca post dari blog akak,ingin akak menyatakan sesuatu, Ampunkan akak ayah,segala dosa masa lalu akak,akak menyayangi ayah sebagaimana akak menyayangi mama.Akak cuba menjadi seorang anak yang boleh ayah banggakan,maafkan akak kalau akak tak sempurna menjadi anak yang boleh dibanggakan. Yang sangat menyayangi ayah ,akak.

Operation manager note

Assalammualaikum

Huh … so tired right now.. -_-  , I just do my business presentation ,as usual my brain become blank after that… I got nervous when I’m  in front of the panel , well as operation manager i got blur when I try to explain to the panel .

But what happen today really give me something to realize , grouping work not easy that we can say . you will be thankful if you got a professional members . if you got member type that selfish and only play around, well just say … prepared your mental brain.

Okay its okay, let gone by gone…and it already late for now to fight each other

As usual, there a lot things to do…. Assignments that must submit in this weeks… Arghhhhh, don’t want to say anything or thinking anything . -.-ll

Our Booth place, it kind not good place, well beside us is ‘PUKAW’ booth, they produce shirt .

It their product ,the really product that they sell .

Forgot to mention it, my grouping business product is Café de lebrian ,it’s a café business but in the café have place to read and find books, that’s the attraction to people, where they can eat and meanwhile they can read the book.

This is our stuff that we need in business , Envelope, name card ,tag and more

The design were come from 3 brain storming from me ,fara and nazira,this is the first time to fara use this kind concept . you can see the design use of the flower, pink colour..

                 

                                                                   Our café button badge

The interior shop that have been make to show what will appear.

The interior design as 3D that have be done by me, it just simple interior, for the first I thought I want to do it as a video, but my computer got hang suddenly so I just take it as jpeg. Capture and put in slide

Waaaahhh! I sleep for 15 minutes just now,okay continue typing …

For few days, Malacca is become to heat right now, theres no rain and it been to  and it make the around my university always get news about place been fire , lastly news is about a student car suddenly being fire. when night come the heat still there my around ….

You can see, yes it look like like a cold place ..but actually because of the leftover smoke form the last fire happen (the forest been fire) , it look like this.

The view from my Hostel.

For several days I keep hanging with my classmates room, for do the group assignment.

She is doing harder to finish the assignment . Look Multitasking …

Well for people work as graphic design , they will need 2 or 3 computers to their job . my lecture have his own graphic laptop and computers in his rooms. Cool…. I want it when I work ! hahaha

My friend marker art work , it really awesome ! I feel regretting because not to take this subject, I take photo subject. Huhu well I can do all the art subject but maybe several things I can do ,

photography( I good in taking photo, but just I not too much loved it) ,

graphic (I love to design, design cover book , designing the banner ,and making ads)

industry design(I not interest with making model building ,but I interest in marker rendering)

and fine art.. (I love fine art so much, I love painting !) ,

i not good enough, I think I still weak…  my friends keep tell I  good at it and my idea are awesome and they jealous on me but for 100 times I keep tell them, i not good and i still learning it

Not because im not proud my skill , just I still weak on it and need to learning it as hard as I can.

Arggh  so awesome!!!!!!

Next semester I want do this things again!!!!

My ads , I will do it in stop motion and I cant wait to this things

So excited and so scared… I hope this semester I get higher pointer… :’)

Yeah I know my pointer increasing every semester but I really hope my pointer will be the increase the higher level . NEVER STOP DREAMING ! ^_^

okay lastly sharing story ,our photo at Presentation business

Operation manager selfie(both of us is operation manager)

with marketing manager,nazira 

My beloved classmates girl 

Grouping members

My financial manager,fara

crazy mood

with my guys classmates

(yeah they weird but they awesome)

with marketing manager's husna group,bella

P/S:sygnya aku ni pendek hahaha,kalau tggi nampak la aku ni sebenarnya kurus....hahaha ok thats funny,bajet2 je aku ni...its okay sbb kalau aku tggi ,nmpak mcm dewasa pulak hahaha ^_^

okay thats for all, ^_^ wish me luck in examination,this week and next week.....

#Always think positive what allah give to us,whether it make you hurt or happy,everything you do will get pay on it,me as humans never run away from mistakes,what i can just do is ask forgiveness and try to be good friend ,good daughter,good sister and good servants to allah :') . In sya allah, try to be matured when people say bad things to us,smile and thank to god because all the insults we got allah will give us rewards.

Never stop doa.

3d animation

assalammualaikum~

i just drop for a moment here,for update my blog,well i just got finish our 3D animation work,well just a little bit more,and it will convert to animation.. huhuh

this final week really make me really stress,negative thinking and little bit fighting with my members.Okay after this all done,our fight will gone and this stress will out! >.<

okay.... straight to the point :

 Okay this is Our project 3d animation,our project is about a crow bird...well base to Malay legend story that about the smart crow,so we given assigmnt to change the story and design the animation base what our group story






This both character design still in process,still in process to make them move

this our introduction,its not yet done,it still need a little editing and little props

This playground made by me and my other partner atin,you kind see it look like easy to do,but the fact is ...

really..made us doesnt sleep until 5 AM.but its enjoying time

Actually this house already done,just it get missing link,the view colour of the house suposed pink colour and not grey.Well its okay,i really excited to made it become animation!

this week maybe i rarely not with blog,cause i have bussinese presentation with real people,the people in bussiness industry,tv commercial project,final examination, my History art presentation,,MUET exam,Photo final , finding client,make report,and more important my applying to continue back my Latihan Khidmat Negara and finding new University for Degree. -.-''

~aaahh so stress become leader~

forget to mention,last week i was invited go to dinner with husna,well of course it all about food,sure we come hahaha ^^

well actually im so bored and im lazy go the dinner party,but when i think about our empty stomach,so im just going there....

me with husna ^^

selfie moment <3

Simple dress,this dress my beloved mom buy for me,she say i look matured when wear purple colour, i loved this dress too much,cause my mom buy it to me,she always say her little daughter now has grown up and has become woman now hahaha

''Mama, im still 20 and i dont want be grow up,or my lovely mom will got wrinkles faster hehehe''

i wear simple make up,just lip bam,and eye liner .the lip bam for make my lips look shiny hahah

actually my lips are hurting,so i just wear lip bam for recovery my lips.....

and the eye liner just little bit.actually i dont like wear mascara,its so heavy,i wear it once when i become flower girl at my friends wedding,it surely annoyed

my guy think im keep thin and keep loss weight for several weeks,and he doesnt like it,he ask me to eat much,

when i say to him i will get fat,he reply no need worry,i just more consider about ur health , i accept whatever are you,and all allah creatures are beautiful.

Kyaaaa~!

^_^ whatever you said even its the sweetest things ever i shall never stop diet until my weight become 50 kg,hahaha,well thats a normal weight for people like me,even i now are 52 kg

this i made in class,so bored that time hehehehe

for my husna and her beloved boy

orite thats all for this weeks,bye2  :'(

#hidup aku hdup aku,hdup kau hdup kau,aku xde kna mngena dgn kau.noktah.

i really thankful allah!

im thankful too allah,for give my life as muslim so i know how to pray ,and how to read the al quran
im thankful too allah ,for give a lovely mom and the best dad in my life
im thankful too allah for give someone special,that i can holding his hand and can date whenever time i want
im thankful too allah for give many best friends,and not let me alone when i sad
im thankful too allah for give a talent that i loved,ARTS...
im thankful too allah for give a brain that can i use for choose bad and good and can think matured

the more i list what allah give too me,the more i realised,that allah have give me a really good life
its not because im lucky,its because allah knows my weakness and he the one make decission for my life and know the best for me....

no more hate or annoyed too some people that become hipokrit,copyist,or fake people to me..
cause they dont have my life,my sweet life that allah give to me

Alhamdulillah,praise to god

 اللهُمَّ لَكَ الْحَمْدُ شُكْرًا

Ya Allah hanya kepadaMu segala puji dengan benar-benar bersyukur :')

love life

Little story about love life

This guy,might not charming as prince asia

This guy might not rich as King

This guy might not perfect in others people eyes

but to me 

he charming,cause of his bright smile for me

he Rich for kindess and lovely feeling

he is perfect in my eyes..

thanks for him,he make me move on and stop my tears....

thanks for him came back to my life.....

thanks for him for waiting me for ages

Aries94 

today story

Assalammualaikum :)

yesterday i stayed at my classmate house for a day,well just to do group assigments..and then i found 2 little hamsters,they are so cute.... so adorable,little,tiny and really soft...what make funny is,my friend say to the hamster,

''even your name is hamster you still a mice to me...and i dont like you''

we laughing at her... i keep playing with it,well i want to keep the hamster,and already ask my dad..but he say ,who will take care of it...well his right,i think i will buy it when i have work...^^

is she so cute! she is the cutest thing

last week too i stayed for three days at my twin house,well i had to..cause theres food in their house..hahaha

think im poor?nahh im just saving the money so i can have a enough money to take my driving licence..maybe? hahahah look what i found in my twins house

this two bears really2 big... and so soft hehe... i remember of something,i asked my mom buy me a big cute bear for my graduation day..... i waited for it mama

okay i got money from goverment,what will i do with the money? well of course the first thing i want to buy is my red baby accecories,her new cover,everything will be upgraded..

hehe

even she just ASUS,she have so much give me a good time,im so loved with her.... still i want buy another laptop,using my own money,i want buy apple....hehhehe then i have three laptop for now

the brief in the evening class.......

okay thats all i think,byebye

#at library and in freezing

my heart my note

20 years of my life on this country

am i stuck in this country forever?

do i will ever out from this country?

i not hate this my precious land..

this land where i was born

this land where i live

this land its so big and still yet i still not travel it

i want go to other country..

not for stayed there..

not for moved there

i want go travel...

go far away as i can...

bring myself to all states on the earth

to runaway from my messed country

yes i do love my Malaysia...

but i sick all of this

political , criminal , all this make me annoyed

who will i trust? who will i choose?

my life isn't just after graduate from university,find work and married...

or everyday do the same things....

i want to travel,find new culture,find new info....

Malaysia maybe will famous,but it maybe can be down...caused of the leaders that only selfish

a step,a choice ..this is change anything

I'am loosing...

i'am give up

i'am damn hate it

but

i know i can start again

i know i can make back

i know i can loved it

up again and start cheer back,breath away...throw all negative mind....and make back a positve mind

Photo story

This is all My photo story life,maybe there some photo i reuploading..hehe3.. ^_^

im just bored right now.....dont know what to do,but of course not do my assigmnt...im in stress -_-

#keheeee.............if i get chance to get mekah,i will snap as much as i can!!!!

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