Aku bosan

Aku Bosan,haha title tajuk dh trang2 mnunjukkan aku dah bosan dengan segalanya . .  !

Apa yang aku cari dalam kehidupan cinta aku ? i just need a guy that i can love all my heart without thinking anything and he too love me too ! which is the type guy i really find is, he matured,not selfish ,Not control at all in my life , do know me very well , and always with me whenever time !

did you know a guy that wait for girls texting first are currently damn sucker,Hell what you think who are you Sucks??? Ouhh do you think time have changes and this time are girl turn to find guy,ehh... Just be Mak nyah lahh !

How about guy dishonest of something ? whatever hell he keep from me, i can easily find out ... Crap dude, your excuse is you want take care girls heart and dont want fight or what so ever fucking excuse,Really you wrong buddy, its a Dummy things.. ! and you are Stupid,Low IQ................................!
what girls want, a truth, dont give us a Hope ! after we know ur lies,the things only you do is say sorry and get lost as soon as posible and leave us without sign and with all hurt feelings, i just hope U die and die....
Fuck you ashole !!!

The things is, yes i am im not dissatisfied with all guys including my Boyfriend....... really you too much annoying me,i just want block you now..........! but im so stupid and really stupid that i cant broke our relationship cause i loved you too much,and damn the things that only i do is be patience and pretend its okay,i give u another chance (^^) really shit and ashole................................

i want do something ......that you realised what you done wrong, im really tired to say okay anymore................

My twin guy N.Y.M.M 17 JANUARY 1994

The weight
of a simple human emotion
weighs me down
more than the tank ever did

the pain
it's determined and demanding
to ache, but I'm okay . . .

And I don't want to let this go
I don't want to lose control
I just want to see the stars with you

and I don't wanna say goodbye
someone tell me why
I just want to see the stars with you

you lost, a part of your existence
in the war, against yourself
oh, the lights,
they light up in lights of sadness
telling you, it's time to go

And I don't want to let this go
I don't want to lose control
I just want to see the stars with you

and I don't wanna say goodbye
someone tell me why
I just want to see the stars with you

don't give it up just yet stay grand
for one more minute, don't give it up just yet
stay . . . grand ( 3x )

And I don't want to let this go
I don't want to lose control
I just want to see the stars with you

and I don't wanna say goodbye
someone tell me why
I just want to see the stars with you

with you

The fault in our stars


ehh tetibe plak aku letak lirik lagu ni ha...
actually this song remind me to someone,we once be together,too close,we crush on each other,we almost like brother and sister,he same age with me,we called our self The Twins . .
He nice,funny,caring,and our favourite mostly all of it are common same..
I like him because he there whenever im in trouble,sad and alone...

But one day.he gone...forever frm my life,is not mean i cant meet him,just he break our relationship,i know it is my fault,im not there when he need someone to take care him.. i dont blame him cause go from me,i deserve it,...
This pain that i received is i loose someone that really precious to me.. i lost him ..

Dear yaz(fake name),
i dont angry with you cause leave me...
yes im crying now,and i regret it too much... i know you never come back to wipe my tears again...
i know its my fault make you this,make you break our relationship...
i dont angry when i know u have delete my number,u block me from facebook,i deserved it...
thanks for being someone that once i rely,the one that accept my feelings....
I love you,
sorry all my fault to you,thanks to give ur ear to listen my story...

Even u not read this,i hope you read this... i still waiting you...

i have one dream that ikeep just for you....its kay to see you from far as long your bright smile...
dont give up yas! i know you are strong ....... im fine with my life that i choose,i smile when i sad... that i always do...even my life is ruin,i keep smile..thats me a happy person..

I love you My twin

thanks let go my hand.....

luahan hati seorang adik

Tatkala pertama kali aq memndng qaw,aq bagaikan terkena kjutan elektrik.btapa kncangnya jntung aq pada waktu itu,pda asalnya aq cma brasa slesa dngan diriqaw sbelum mntap wajah qaw.Qaw umpma prlindung yang sntiasa mngambil berat dn sentiasa mmbuat aq ketawa.

Akan ttpi aq smbunyikan,kerana aq tk mhu qaw pergi.Diwktu itulh terjadi nya hubungan sekadar adk dn abg,wlaupun itu sahaja prhubungan kita,diwktu itu aq tetapkan hti aq,tidak kira ap pun tk akn prnah aq khilangan qaw..

Stahun dh berlalu, aq ttap mnympn hti trhadap qaw,ttpi ttap aq merahsiakan nya dari qaw.. 

satu hari aq qaw britahu yg qaw mmpunyai kksih hti,hncurnya perasa’n aq,ttpi aq tahan dn trsenyum.Aq rela brundur agar dpat melihat qaw sntiasa tersenyum..

Aq berbaik dngan kksih qaw,aq katakan dia ssuai dgan qaw..dn aq suruh dia jaga qaw dngan baik,selepas itu aq cuba mencari pengganti qaw,aq blajar mncintai dia agr aq dpat mematikan perasa’n ksih cnta ini kpada qaw.

Tapi aq dtinggalkan dia,aq trlalu sedih,aq mmberikan cinta pda yg slah,aq dtang kepada qaw,hanya untuk menghiburkan hti aq sahaja,ttpi tiba-tiba kksih hti qaw menyuruh mmutuskan hubungan kita sbagai adk dn abg,aq terkejut dn mrah,qaw kata dia salah fham tntang kita,qaw kta qaw mntak ma’f,qaw kata aq orang kdua terpenting dalam hidup qaw.Aq diam . . 

Dn disitulah wujudnya ksukaran aq dn qaw untuk brhubung,hnya tlefon dn text menjadi perhubungan kita,

Ttpi kksihqaw masih tidak puas hti dn sanggup mem’aki aq,dn mmerli aq,aq tahan,adakala aq trlepas juga kata m’aki aq,dn menmbah balik kmarahan dia. . .

2 bulan kita begini,jarang berhubung, qaw kata qaw dh penat dngan dia,qaw mahu ptus,qaw mahu lepaskan dia..ttpi tidak juga qaw laqkan,

aq terfikir,mengapa aq tidak luahkan perasa’n aq awal2? 

aq sanggup buat apa sahaja asal qaw tetap disisi aq..

satu hari pertama kali kita berjmpa,aq tak dpat terima dn mrasakan ini smua ini mimpi,aq terlalu sgan dn gmbira..

kalau qaw tahu yang aq mnympn perasa’n terhadap qaw,apa yg qaw akan buat? kadng2 aq penat mnympn perasa’n ini,aq sehingga kini cba membunuh perasa’n ini... 

walaupn kita tdak ditakdirkan,aq hrap aq akan sntiasa mlihat snyuman qaw smpai bila-bila

(mcm bodo2 je cerita niey hahaahaah,aq xreti wat novel)

when my mood become bad

This week is the week full of tension week ever ! ! !
too much pressure,because of that.im simply can crying suddenly...  :'(

hmm

last week,i got my grade results,its just for from my own lecture marks,he said the marks for the final can be upgrade or maintain.. i got A- , but he said i can get chance to upgrade it.. hmm i dont know i can do it or nt,it depends at another lecture..hope he nice give me A+ :3, Amen..

2 days he give time to make back the illustrations figure,and that 2 days my roomates go home,that means for two days i only talk to my self.. !
before i talk to myself,better i go stayed at atin house,im glad she say welcome me stayed for a long time,actually next sems i will live at that house,so it means,it will be y house too.. hohoh

yes i have a really great time and new exprienced,at last i finally meet RICE! memang makan la kerja aku kat rumah dya LOL...
at that day i meet new friend,her name is nad..well she really cute and little spoiled. i like her :D
okay back to my story,
really im really 24 hours laughing. . . and wonder when i will finished my assigment?
LOL



i take it from next house

that night, fanie the members of that house invite me go to hot water bath .. i think, want finish and focus do my assigment or follow them,humm of course i choose hot water bath ... >.<

we reach at there in 12am,and finish bath at 2 am.. it relaxing and tired,cause we go bath at the hottest water,whew really make my head go blank...after that we go home,and i said to myself,after this i must continue my assigment,but after that i sleep early..hahaha

and then tommorow the day i must print my work,i wake up early and go fast as i can to finish it... huhu,i could make on the time!

my illustration

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it really take a time make it,but i satisfied with it...

okay then really yesterday i really run too much,after assesment,im and my friend husna do photo snap... at jonker walk ,well it really tired and really make we more tension,hell what,our money are gone! where we want to find money to do another assigmnt??? still think about it and it really effect at me, i almost break up with my boy,really only one i think that time kill my self,i feel really full depress,and today my beloved camera screen are broken,what im gonna say to my dad???? today is really worse,i cant answer properly my examination.

every minute im justthink about money..... really sad about it,but let it gone by gone,ihave told my mom about the camera,she said no more cry,she will care about it,im really sad,i have made my mom troubled... today too im not spoke for day along to husna,im really not in the mood to tlking with her...beside its better i shut my mouth,i afraid that my angry feeling i let out at her...

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Last night too ,it make me feel annoying,my ex former brother add me back,i dont know why,well i dont mind,i just approove it...beside im now only spent time with twitters,no more facebook,but today i got message from him,

just go away bitch stay away out of my live!!!!

 i think it from his crazy girl,really u such a annoying type and really fucking weird...
she can make a thousand facebook to stalk me,go hell girl,u just teenagers to me,dont you know im older than u know,where is your fucking manners,please... u have a beatiful face but sad ur brain at ur under feet..
well i  dont mind you want say im ugly or whatever, this is allah give me,and i really gratefulll to him :3

okay to much dirty word,daaaa

out zoo malacca

Hye readers,stalker,my friends and Alien(mahluk allah).. i just back from go outing ,today we only have one class,so we take advantage of the difficulty, he he he, it means going out to release tension but narrow money in our pocket, after all we out fun to lose stress because of assigments.

The main place we go to the Malacca zoo, why Malacca zoo ? Because we've never go in the zoo melaka even we stayed at malacca,sad right, this time the rain just fell, but it did not rain last period, and we to pray to God, do not rain, so we can to see the animals

This at tiger section,hahaha they just playing around,im really excited to meet the the tiger,you know he really scary but at the same time i think they really cute,honestly! like a cat

me at the Lion section,the male lion follow me.. he looked me like im his food,wow really cool... i wondering how it feeling when the animals like lion or tiger chase me,and how i can save my life so they cant eat me? hehe

haha this is funny momment,they said they are sweet couple,and when husne want take their sweet photos,i interfere and make funny face..hehehe

 I just playing around,im little hyper a little bit i guess

 err, I think not so little bit of my hyper

well just enjoying life,not take what people said about me

beside my friend like me like this,compared to be a boring type huhhuhuh

after be crazy for moments,we go do our duties as servants of God, its Pray <3

#enjoying as much you want,but never forget about your the compulsory

i look this photos for a couple times, God how brave i am!

that time it have showcast for animal,and once they say they need volunteer,i stand up... 

huhuh it really embrassed actually,but im kind wanna try hehe

and i got prize get free get capture what animals i want that time,so love it!

you see the photo with orang utan,im really impressed,he so briliant and clever... and cute to ,but what i unfeel comfortable,the way he hold me,his hand really close at my chest,i feel like im being touched,hehe but its okay,i prefer the animals from the guy,

Ouh forget to mention it,the guys,i mean the animal trainer,not so bad,good looking,haha but i not really mind,only my friends, Really they cute? i think orang utan more cute hahhaha

how my image? are im look like a proper girl with a good atitude? hahaha

me,zarith sufiea never leave my hyper and crazy attitude at anywhere,including with VIP or so what ever

yes im not beautiful like you or the miss 2020, but i really gratefull what allah give me..

even im not preety,i have a good friends,a happy family, a good relationship, alls this thing are more enouhg to me

me at bowling centre at malacca,i thought i will loose as usually,im not good in bowling,but after my friend teach me,i get high marks sometimes hehe so happy,my first time i got pass of the bowling huhuuh

okayh thats all,i think hihihhihi bye3

time we happy ,that time we cry

baa baa black sheep. . .

i dont know why i feeling something wrong at me, . .
everything i feel lazy... Lazy to eat,lazy to sleep,lazy do assigments and more lazy that i can listed...

Urh maybe it is because of week final will come through,after that exam..and then change another sems,after that i have to live in house. urmm. . .

i  dont want,i want be with husna and faito... Honest ly i like em.. although,sometimes make me badmood.. :(
but they are great,good rommates, i hope i get with em again.. huhhuh

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Look what i did, hehehe i use Photocape,i bet u know it what it is,huhuhuhuhuhu

This is all my girl friend at my class

i Love em , tommorow we will hanging together at zoo, i dont know it will be or not,just see tommorow

 

we only shoot at University place,after class we go walk around campus and snapping

my little twin doesnt want show of her face,like a cat... heheh

its so long i never hanging at this lake,feel calm

i always do it last sems,just hanging and peace my mind

we just can hear,sound of air,water, and play with the little fish

Cute leaf, i trying to snap it,but it way to  far... it on the water,so it flowing and follow the wave water....

this just lucky snap i got

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 today was Rain day. . .

this is my atyn and syaz,both my bestfriend too....

we together being crazy sometimes

ouh me,hehehe...

Never feel like this crazy ever,last i be crazy when im in depress,too much depress heheh

My little faito sleeping at my bed,Huhuhu... i put the scarf at her head,hehehe so cute

#my insomania disease dont know when will be gone, still trying to sleep by my own without sleeping pills

kekekeke

                                                         

put gun at my head please

I suppossed finish my assigments,but what the HELL,idk what supposed i doing.....
yep lots of people say that i kind like suspend my work... kikiki

   

Honestly,i dont know what to do,what to write and what to make....just play my pen until i bored

im alone,all my roomates gone... husne going home,faito go outing for shooting and cloudy go event... No one that i cant talk right now.... hell yeah,i have Handphone and can message anyone,but what u think? i have too much money to pay my phone bills? or you can be my substitute ,if my dad scolded me when the bills become higher... easy you say to me Do not call people redundant, clever Chambers,,bla bla bla bla...

PLEASE SHUT UP SUCKER 

U not in my place.. so please go away okay dear 

heheh too much emotions,okay relaxs... hu haa hu haaa... calming calming my self

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okay to the point, i just do photo snap ,for my photography subject...  and that can i do for now..huhuuhu

my bunny are snapping by herself..hehe..

dont know what to snap... i think tommorow i wil go out and snapping

better to clean messy place,before faito and husne back... or they wil bla bla bla bla at my ear huhuhuhuhuh

this all my object to snapping hhuhuh

beautiful right? hihhihih it is close to the beach, this photo is my piece secret memories that i keep... when i look this photo,it make me remembering what im doing back then,sometimes,if i could i want feel it again...  i miss this moment.. can it turn back? i guess cant.. its wrong to make it again... its my first time through that time, just hope nothing happen to me

-forbidden work

bla bla bla what the hell im wrote,haha bye -ZS

appreciate every day that comes

Assalam.... i so up to bored now... well actually i have a lots of story to tell,but first let me tell you about,my little twin,Husne....her first driving car to malacca,we have to finish our photography assigmnts,hahaaha its really funny and enjoying...

  

We want to go Taman rama-rama,but unfortunely that time she pick wrong way,and we straight to UTEM ,University Technical Malaysia malacca,urhhh its so embrassing!! hahaha... the guy student look us,but we pretend that we did not do wrong things (>.<)

its really fun,but same time i think my heart beat will stop any moment that time,of course i afraid,its her first time drive car with me and go to city,and my habit when in car,i always sleep..but that day,i gonna stay awake... or not i think im in hospital right now..heheh

AT Taman rama-rama,we capture a lots of photos,well its for assigments..but i have take couple photos and some videos,and there i found a lot of animal,that i only see at Tv... i gotta a lot new experience at there,i hope one day i will go again with family.. Hope so...fufufufuf,

After go Taman Rama-rama,we spent time playing Bowling and buy New clothes..
hehehe sorry i really cant stand cute oufit and super cheap ... i buy clothes that look like people go to work at office,i do like style clothes like that.... and this clothes are from Korea... iam really loved tis blue clothes! its only RM 20,... i will ask my mom buy another clothes for me again.... hihihi

New clothes

This week are last week for we enjoying week,after that,we will had final assement,and exam.. urhh i cant believed it... almost half year i at UiTM,This year im 19,next year i become 20!!!!
huhuhu......................

I think next sems,i will dont get Hostel anymore...hurm i have find new place ,and rent... (o.O)
huhuuuh............................. arghhhhh..... it really make my head want to blow........

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Okay second story,its about Faito.. huhu poor faito.. faito got stress and flu at the same time,well faito course are photography.... seems really busy... but faito can manage the time,just faito always late go to class... sleepyHead like Faito,only really wake up when i said,''U want i kiss you,or u want wake up and go to bath??'' hehehe
of course,faito quickly wake up and go to bath.... Nyaaaa .....!

I hope Faito get well soon... faito look really funny with tissue on nose for 1 hours... hhehehehee (^^)
love u always cutey

mY Third story, of course about my projects
i created my own raya card,well its not a great design,but i satisfied what im doing. . .
I have finish my calligrapgy card,my title for my card is a famous love song by frank sinetran titled Let me fly to the moon,its great song, i loved it try to hear it.... (^^)
Now i focused two projects, motion video and character design animation... i will upload soon, u can see it what is motion video are.....

okay.... i have End my post Now... im currently waiting for our turn to speaking Test,urhh too much scary.. >.< where on earth all my team member for speaking test?????? hu!!!!!!!!
wish me luck for speaking Test okay,Btw i miss you my cute cute

#My zodiac is scorpion ,How about you?